Tuesday, an apology

     I hurt my sisters feelings yesterday and I want to apologize to her and to you.  I had a really hard week with mom and her antics, but that is no excuse to trash my sister.  I just was hurt and very angry.  I let anger and an unforgiving heart rule my thoughts and then put it to paper(which I did not tear up)  I allowed mom to come between my sister and me.  I have no excuse.  I hope my Lil sis can forgive me.  I know she will but I am having a hard time forgiving myself.  Social media is no place to air ones feelings in spite.  I love my sisters, both of them with all my heart and I know they love me.It is gratifying to get the attention when you are angry and hurt, but in reality it just feeds the monster and I need to stop being such a Bit%^.  Nuff siad.

     Yesterday I paid almost all the bills.  I still have a couple looming that will have to be paid after the dust settles.  It is just so nice to pay all the bills at the beginning of the month and then concentrate on debt.  I would have been able to pay all the bills, but I had over $400.00 in one time bills that come this time of year,  My business license, the sprinkler man, B's meds, and a power bill that I did not pay.  So next month will be easier.  Every month should get easier.  My totals are going down.  If I had this house account, I could pull money for extra bills and then put it back.  It just makes sense to me.

     Mom and I put together two pies last night and a jello salad.  I did purchase a box of blueberry jello yesterday.  Hub's and I had this huge cart and one box of jello.  It was so funny.  I even asked the cashier for help carrying out my purchases. 

     We are having a BBQ at Lil sis's.  I am bringing corn on the cob, a watermelon, two pies, and cookies and jello.  Yum!  We will then go down to the levy and stake out a spot to watch the fire works.  It will be fun.  I have some 4th of July napkins to finish.  I need to do a little house work, and a little sewing.  Hubs and I will take a long walk.  It will be a nice peaceful 4th.

     I was able to add a little so my saving yesterday. I close an account at the bank that I had to keep open as long as I had the quick lock loan.  I added those monies and the money left over from the weekends money that I did not spend.  In order to hit my goal of 1500.00 I have to put at least 200.00 a week in and then add a lump sum at the end of the month.

     I am going to water my flowers, check the chickens, and plant a few flowers.

Happy 4th of July!

Kim